All about life!

There are some good days and there are some bad days. But have you experienced those days when it is neither...? There are some days that I think are just not in any category. Like the ones that I have right now! I do not know what or how to react to any situation and I am just letting life pass by. Its not exactly boredom. Its beyond that, its a stage when you are fed up of lots of things in your life and no event can make you react in any particular manner. You have given up trying to make things allright, trying to win over people, trying to make better sense of your existence.

I think noone has ever made sense of his/her existence. Do we know why we are here? What is the purpose that we are dropped down to execute? Do we execute it no matter what? Dont they depend on the decisions we take? Will we ever know if we have already done it? I think not! I think there are lot of mysteries that we will never solve, so many secrets we will never be able to unfold. Maybe thats why life is so unpredictable, exciting and beautiful.

There are somethings better left as they are, than being analysed. I realized this since I was constantly wanting something to happen very badly but it now seems like i can live and live happily even if certain things I want (no matter how badly, I want) dont happen. I think its all for a purpose and utlimately I will get what I am destined to. So, I decided to stop analysing why things are going wrong. And moreover life is made up of a lot of small and big things together and does not depend on one thing.

Coming to terms with the fact that we may never get what we have always wanted is hard, really hard, but not impossible. And life doesnt look so bad after all when u finally do come to terms with it. There will always be many more things to look forward to. And that means many more reasons to be happy :-)

Oh god!!! that was so much of crap that I've written! but then what else can you do when people dont want to listen to your thoughts!