Having listened to the same advice from three different people in the last month and that same advice vigorously supported by some of my friends, I am in probably the most confused state of my life. It being messy, which is nothing different from the otherwise "nothing is right" state of life, I am only trying to let go of a fantasy.

Turning 24 is not a very pleasant stage in life. Not being in your early twenties is so hard. Just so darn hard! I think I want to be 21 again. 21 was the best year of my life. Last year of college, good friends who were all in the same city, realization of what I actually like in my subject, a job in hand, bike rides, laughter, love, separation, pain, promises...perfect combination!

Right now, this day...three years down the line, still in college, have good friends all living close by, still want to do the same thing, car drives, laughter, separation, pain...the same things, but still everything has changed.