huh?

Have u ever felt so many thoughts rushing into ur head that you want to scream out loud "STOP"! But they wont go away, you will anyway think about them all, go crazy, curse yourself, curse all those people, get back to sorting them out, but eventually give up and end up a lil more insane.

And then you wonder why you let it happen to you, but then you dont want to ignore and push away the thoughts to a corner in your mind, because thats the exact thing that you have been doing and you finally want to deal with it.

Final result: Introspection, taking decisions to be stronger, shouting "screw you" to ugly things in life and a multimillion minutes later...thinking that these thoughts are wasting my time, making me think of depressing things so just ignore them! Basically back to square one, I am never going to change!